Where to go

How do you express what you want to say when you feel so far away?

How do you mean what should be meant when there are no words to say?

Seperated, weak, destroyed

Like noone cares, noone wants what I have, my opinion

Away, lost, pushed

Things happen so quick, change comes too fast and I can only sit and watch

small, alone, afraid

Who can I turn to, go to, seek out?

but You

You teach, I learn, but doesn't make it feel better

I don't see it, feel it now

But in time I know

You will show, teach me in ways I never knew possible

You will show me in ways I will not understand

What can I do now?

Oh please help

Help me, heal me, I feel sick

I'm away, I feel I need to run

I need to go, scream, wander

God please carry me! Please hold me this time

Show me where to go, what to do

Can't do it alone, not without You

I will run the wrong way

I need YOU.

His love and time

What is it that scares me
Who is it that stops my words
I don’t think I know what to say
God knows what to say
Nothing comes out of my mouth
Why?
I don’t know exactly
I can’t figure it out on my own
But God wants to help me
He cares more than I think
Soon I won’t be stopped
Through trusting God, anything is possible
Even if I think it isn’t
He knows more than me
His plans are greater than mine
His love is amazing
I trust that his timing is better
I trust that He knows better
I rely on myself too much
I am too hard on myself
But God loves me
He is never too hard on me
He is patient
He has a plan
I will follow it
I am excited
He is excited
I love
Because He loved me first
And I now can love Him

Color

What if blue was green & green was actually orange?
What if what we see isn't really what is there?
What if God shows us this life as a test or in preparation for what will really come- what is true?
Physically life doesn't matter...it will all burn
But spiritually everything matters according to eternity
Living for eternity is hard, like changing your lenses to look at life completely differently,
Like going into a country without knowing the language and trying to have a conversation
Learning new things takes a long time, learning a new way of life can take longer, can take a whole lifetime
This life molds us into being like Jesus, Jesus was God, God is perfect and only God can be perfect.
So how can we expects to come close, how can we think we even compare. Can't.
It is impossible, unattainable adventure no one will ever fully complete or conquer.
But it is a learning journey to love
To find home, where we belong and can be the closest possible to what we dream.
To perfection, to life, Father, God.